Happy Saturday morning! Today, I wanted to provide a brief update on how things are going and then chat with you about my return to full-time blogging.
Since my half-hiatus, which I announced in a Self-Care Sunday post a couple weeks ago, I’ve remained pretty active, particularly with reading everyone’s posts. I haven’t commented as much as normal simply due to the fact that I have been trying to focus more on my self-care and staying withdrawn. It is one of the best ways for me cope with significant amounts of stress and anxiety. Also in an effort to combat additional negative feelings and thoughts, I began a 30-Day Book Challenge in an attempt to keep my blog active while not needing to focus on super in-depth material, with the occasional sprinkling of fun, easy content. For me personally, I didn’t feel comfortable with leaving my blog blank and un-updated for however long it would take me to recuperate. This probably has much more to do with my OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) than anything else.
Anyhoo, those are things I have done pertaining to my blog. Outside of my blog, life has gotten tons better since I embarked on my health vacation. For instance, the stress and struggles that my dear friend was facing in the wake of her escape from a harmful relationship has finally found its calm. Things have been rather smooth sailing. We have also adjusted nicely to having her as a living member of our household. In a way, she’s actually filled out our family very nicely, and her presence in my life—a constant physical presence specifically—has helped me face my social anxiety head on. It was definitely challenging and heightened my anxiety and paranoia initially, however placing myself in front of something that made me so wholly uncomfortable has had a much more profound and positive effect on me than I ever thought it would, surprisingly.
Other ways I have coped with self-care includes not cancelling my health and wellness coaching sessions, finding pleasure in making and consuming smoothies as a healthy and nutritious alternative to stress (i.e.: junk food) binging, not being afraid to take time that is entirely for myself, forcing myself to get outside of the house, or at the very least my Safe Space (my bedroom) when I can tell that my withdrawal begins to have a relapse effect on my mental health (such as triggering my paranoia, or making it too convenient for me to sleep for hours when I hit a Low day with my bipolar), and not being afraid to ask for help when I need it. That last one is a huge step towards progress for me because normally I hate asking for help. I always feel like I’m a burden or some shit like that, and inevitably talk myself out of it; even if the help I’m seeking is Sir Betrothed’s.
So… it’s safe to say that my half-hiatus and taking time to heal worked out splendidly. Honestly, you guys, I was terrified that things would get far worse, or that I would get so comfortable in my withdrawn little bubble that I wouldn’t have the strength or desire to return to the things that I love. Yet, when I realised that this was something that was growing more and more unlikely, I felt as if I could breathe again, and that was when it became easier to do what was necessary for me. I used to always jump to the worst possible conclusions and expectations, and I won’t lie, I still do it, but stopping and forcing myself to think more rationally rather than emotionally has made managing life so much more… feasible. I’m not nearly as afraid and when hard-as-fuck things do come up, I don’t feel as overwhelmed and defeated. This is how I know that anyone who is fighting depression will one day find a way to cope and manage in ways that will make them feel like they’re living again.
Apart from the health vacation, I will be returning to university in about two weeks! Since I am going back to school completely for myself and not to please anyone else—not my parents, or friends; not my partner—my excitement and enthusiasm for it has bloomed in a bouquet of perseverance and the strongest fucking desire to kick-ass and succeed. My major will be a double-major: Asian Studies with an emphasis in Japanese history and culture for the first major, and either Psychology of Creative Writing for the second major (still a bit undecided on this one).
Yay for positive life shenanigans—I write (type) with tears in my eyes from disbelief and joy—as it wasn’t too shabby at all.
Now that I’ve shared my brief (haha, not really) life update, let me tell ya what to expect with BiblioNyan moving forward, particularly with my starting school. I will be posting 1-3 posts per day during most days of the week, if not every single day. My goal is to keep it pretty average with two posts per day, but if I can’t meet that goal for whatever reason (more than likely due to homework), I won’t kick myself in the ass. Life happens and sometimes we just need to let it do its thang.
In relation to content, I will keep up with biblio content, self-care Sunday posts, more consistent posts on my journey with learning Japanese (I sincerely apologise for slacking on the Japanese Journals series, but since I am taking Japanese classes, I guarantee these will start up again), and posts on the experience of returning to school as an older student. My anime related content (specifically simulcast content) and my Asian cinema content may decrease or remain plateaued depending on the level of homework I have. As always, if any substantial changes occur, I will keep you guys updated!
Additionally, I will have a guest post series starting up on my blog that will focus entirely on body modifications as a form of self-expression. This goes hand-in-hand with self-care because one of the biggest struggles that individuals have is the conflict of accepting themselves and being themselves without fear of prejudice or expectations that are placed on them via outside sources (parents, family, society, etc.). The first guest post will showcase the adventure of me getting my newest piercing!
I think that just about does it for all of the announcements I have about BiblioNyan. My official full-time return begins on Monday, August 13th, with the month’s first Blogsphere Highlights post, so keep an eye out for it!
Alrighty, that does it for the updates. I hope that you all have been doing well. If you ever need anyone to chat with, my DMs on Twitter are always open. I’m not as active on Twitter anymore, but I do check my DMs consistently. You can also drop me a line in Inquiries so long as you don’t mind me e-mailing you a reply.
Thank you for your continued support and understanding. I have the deepest respect and appreciation for each and every one of you. *bows deeply*
Thank you so much for visiting me today. Until next time, keep reading and keep otakuing. 💜
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