Today, I wanted to have a very candid and brutally honest chat about what happened to cause me to disappear in such a fashion. Before I jump in, I want to offer some content warnings. I curse a lot (of course). There will be detailed discussion of depression, mention of suicide ideation (includes descriptions of different ways to commit suicide), mention of getting buried (metaphorically), and discussion of agonising grief. Lastly, this may get a bit prattley as I am writing it on the fly in full genuine glory.