It’s been a while since I’ve given a life update type of shindig, and so much stuff has happened that I felt it was time to give a fresh one. I have ranted a little bit on Twitter about what life has consisted of, and while I’m going to talk a tiny bit more in detail about it here, I’m going to ask for you to respect the sensitivity of these topics. Please note that there will be discussion of suicide, both attempt of and deaths from, so proceed cautiously.
As I sit here listening to the sounds of the rain against my window, the splatter and spitter of it all, I am overwhelmed with a great sense of disbelief. Today is my birthday and I’m not sure why, but it feels really strange.
On July 25th, I wrote up a Mid-Morning Musings post, where I chatted about my Uncle’s passing and how it had impacted me on an emotional level, as well as what it taught me about grief, anger, and hatred. While I’m still doing relatively well given the circumstances, I have noticed that my perception on the world around me, particularly with respect to my priorities, has started to change and evolve quite a bit. Today, I wanted to briefly touch base on how things are changing and what they shall mean for the future of this blog, BiblioNyan.
Hey all. For today’s Mid-Afternoon Musings, I actually made a voice-recording to go with the write-up. The writing bit is a transcription of the voice recording. I’m trying to put together a new podcast gig thing, so I figured this could be a trial for it. I’m still working on getting a better mic, so if the audio quality isn’t all supreme, don’t worry, I’m working on obtaining the tools to make that aspect better.
Today, I’m feeling a bit blue. I received some bad news on Sunday, which has left me with a mixture of emotions overall, but the most prominent of them is frustration and a tad bit of sadness. On one hand I am relieved because this news is better in both the short and long terms for my physical health and permanent disabilities. However, in the short-run and very near future, it has created a bit of a setback.
Hey chums. I just wanted to hop on briefly today and chat about a few things. A couple days ago, I popped in an announced my involvement in The Jon Spencer Coalition, which stated that I wasn’t going to be making any scheduling changes. Yesterday, I received some news in my personal life that shall be slightly impacting my schedule after all. I wanted to touch base and keep y’all updated with the latest developments.
Today, I wanted to have a very candid and brutally honest chat about what happened to cause me to disappear in such a fashion. Before I jump in, I want to offer some content warnings. I curse a lot (of course). There will be detailed discussion of depression, mention of suicide ideation (includes descriptions of different ways to commit suicide), mention of getting buried (metaphorically), and discussion of agonising grief. Lastly, this may get a bit prattley as I am writing it on the fly in full genuine glory.
Yo, chums. I hope this post finds you well. It’s been over a month since my last interaction here on BiblioNyan, so much so that it feels rather strange putting this thing together right now. But I’m not here to give any updates today, at least not in the ways you’d expect. I have a full detailed life and blog update hitting this space on Monday. Today, I’m here seeking your assistance.
The last time I popped in for a life update was at the end of September, where I chatted about having Survivor’s Guilt, so to speak, and how I wanted to make the most of my life because of that. The vast majority of that write-up also went over how much of a struggle recovery had been for me, mostly on an emotional and mental level. Well, today I wanted to give y’all a new update on recovery and discuss some plans for the near future, both for BiblioNyan and for the Yon Nyan (me!).
Relaxation is defined as being abatement or relief from mental and physical effort, work, etc., and while I totally understand the meaning in a logical fashion, I am absolutely fucking terrible at applying it to myself. This past week while I was silent on the blogspace, I was attempting to partake in effort abating activities since my doctors told me to practise the “art of relaxation,” and let me tell you, folx, if they offered platinum medals for people who are absolutely inept at this so-called art, I’d win them all. ALL. Every bloody one.
Earlier today I met with my cardiovascular surgeon to discuss the open-heart surgery I must undergo in order to get treatment for some of my heart conditions.
Hey all, This is going to be a super quick post where I pop in and let you now that I’m signing off BiblioNyan until after my heart surgery. Thank you SO, SO much for all of supportive words from my previous announcement of this absolutely frightening gig. A couple of things have changed since…
Good morning and happy Sunday to all. June has been a pretty random blogging month for me, as it probably has for a lot of folx out there. Lots of things happened this month so far that really put life on hold for more dire circumstances and occurrences. Even though I’m finding my way back…
Bula chums! I think these Mid-Morning posts are going to be my version of sharing random personal things with y’all. One of my favourite bloggers tends to do this and I enjoy reading them very much. After chatting with her about it briefly, I decided to give it a shot over here on BiblioNyan. I…
Hey, Chums— I cannot even begin to describe to y’all how amazing it feels to be writing up a blog post right now. Blogging has always been my comfort and companion with dealing with mental health, not to mention my full-time job as well, so not being able to blog at all for the past…