#AniTwitWatches: Kanon – Episodes 14 to 20 Thoughts & Reactions

The AniTwitWatches Kanon (2006) watching shenanigans continue today as I make my way through episodes fourteen to twenty. So far, I’ve had some mixed feelings about the series. It started off rather average yet entertaining, then ventured off into an evocative and grief-filled sector, then found its way back into something wholesome and whimsical, and once has found it’s footpath back into the strange and possibly sorrowful. It has definitely been an interesting ride to all sorts of places and I’m both curious as well as nervous to see what the next stop is going to be.

You can check out my musings on episodes one through nine here and then ten through thirteen here. This post, just like their predecessors, shall be written as I watch so I can be authentic in my immediate reactions and responses. As such, they shall be somewhat spoilery and a titbit random.

In episodes fourteen and fifteen, we watch as Yūichi and Mai continue to battle demons, which lead to the young man remembering his past with Mai from ten years ago, including the fact that she has a special power that allows her to heal people with her tears.

After watching these two segments, I feel far more firm in my adoration for Mai as a character. Her compassion and her experiences with loss really explain why she is the way she is now, and I also felt that her connection to Yūichi had more depth to it than the other bonds that have been revealed thus far. I became super invested in  Mai’s story and past and emotional (as well as physical) well-being, more so than I ever was with Makoto or Ayu or Shiori (granted Shiori is still kind of a big mystery).

The allegories that the demons represent were also quite fascinating and supremely relatable. I think we all have something akin to that, ways of destroying pieces of ourselves whether out of denial or our inability to cope, and it’s usually so we can find the path towards survival. Surviving after enduring loss, particularly a great loss, can be extremely challenging and it makes sense that we would create our own versions of demons, or harmful being and elements, that  give us a fighting will; in Mai’s case a literal fighting will.

In the next three episodes, we watch as Yūichi spends a lot of time with Shiori, the girl who has had sporadic appearances throughout the series thus far. He learns about her illness, the complicated relationship she has with her sister, and then things get wrapped by the end of episode eighteen.

Shiori seems to be the one girl that I just cannot care for. Her story arc and presence on screen makes me feel really bored. I’m not entirely sure why she has this effect on me, as her tale is pretty sad all-in-all, yet I cannot find it within me to care about her as I have for Mai or even Makoto. I suspect a lot of it has to do with how little we saw of Shiori before episode sixteen, which made her presence feel unimportant and filler-esque. I think I didn’t receive the proper time to develop that investment in her plight like I did for the other two ladies. Another reason that I may feel so disconnected is that after Makoto’s arc, I was expecting the anime to focus on Ayu, but it ended up veering towards other ladies without too much notice and that misdirection further separated me from caring for Shiori.

With episodes nineteen and twenty, Ayu becomes the centre of the story again. Her and Yūichi begin to spend more time together and develop a sort of intimate type of relationship, which doesn’t surprise me as to the foreshadowing that we were given in the pilot segment with the Western wedding song that played in the background after they ran into the café.

I really enjoy the chemistry that Ayu and Yūichi share. The way they jest with one another and their interactions overall. They’re wholesome and very cute. Ayu feels like she’s the main leading lady of the whole series whenever she’s on-screen with Yūichi and it’s an element that I found to be immensely pleasurable. Although, I felt bad for Nayuki.

Ever since the series began, Yūichi has been somewhat of a dick to his cousin. He’s always being very rudely sarcastic, picking on her, ditching her and forgetting about her constantly in lieu of the other ladies. I have been waiting for Nayuki to start indicating her loneliness or frustrations at being so neglected by her cousin, whom she seems to care for quite a bit. Why she’s showing these feelings now rather than earlier when Yūichi was hanging out with Makoto or Mai or even Shiori, I’m not entirely sure. But the fact that it’s finally here gives me relief.

Twenty ends with Ayu completely disappearing after her and Yūichi go to where her old school was. She seems to remember something shocking or disturbing and the next thing we know, *poof* she’s gone. If I were Yūichi, I would definitely start to sprout some abandonment issues by this point. It’s like every girl that he makes a connection with fucking leaves him standing alone in the dust, so to speak. How can someone not have emotional issues in light of that?

Her disappearance was so unexpected. I mean, I expected something terrible to happen with Ayu (mostly with regard to death-type things), but her disappearing like a ghost (ironically) was not it. I’m curious as to whether she’ll pop back up within the next four episodes just like Piro did, or if she’s gone for good and we’ll never truly know what happened to her.

I have no idea what the fuck to expect for the last four episodes. I’ve been able to predict certain things, but only to specific extents. Kanon has tossed me so many curveballs that my neck and limbs are officially out of whack. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for a bittersweet ending rather than one that is super tragic, yet at this point, my hopes for even that much are weak at best. I may have to go out and get a box of tissues before I wrap this series up once and for all. Maybe.

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